Thinking of long ago.
I have been in the mood to write lately. I think it might be because I am feeling nostalgic as the Holidays are here. I wrote a few poems the past couple of days. They are not finished yet but I got them started lol.
I have also begun to watch Holiday Movies on Netflix. Soppy ones are the best kind don't you agree?
They make me feel good and that is a good thing. It takes reality away and they are always very hopeful.
The way the world is we need all the hope we can get. We need to send good vibes out into the world. So many horrible things have been happening and still the law won't do anything to stop them. The rest of the world thinks we are insane over here in America land. I am getting to the point of agreeing with them.
So as Thanksgiving nears I feel like typing about some of the things I am grateful for. I am grateful for having a warm home to live in. I am thankful for my health. It has been pretty good for a while now. I am grateful for every day of Life I get. I am grateful for having a family that loves me. Even when they might not agree with me or don't like some of my choices. I am thankful for grandchildren that love me and cannot wait to come and spend time with us. That means a lot more than they realize. They continue to grow by leaps and bounds. In a weeks time they change so much. Think how much they change in six months! I just started writing to Syd and Tyler this summer. I now have gotten busy and have drifted away from writing to them. I wrote to Hunter and Penny for Halloween too. Lacey said they really loved getting mail from Grandma. I am so thankful that my daughters have grown in to such beautiful, caring women. 3 our of 3 ain't bad. I am grateful that I got to spend so much time with each of my parents as they neared the end of their lives. It was the toughest thing I have ever done but I still did it. I will never regret that. I hope they knew how much I did still love them. I did not see them as much as I could have, but I went as often as I could. I am grateful for friends. Some come and go but that is okay. I am so dumb with some things that I say. The words seem to get out of my mouth before my brain can stop them. I think part of that is that I don't get to talk to people other than family very often. I need to remedy that. I have been thinking of joining some group just to have time to myself. I just have not found the right group yet.
When I look back on this past year it has been more good than bad. I am still battling weight but I still win more rounds than I lose. I am grateful for books and notebooks and magazines and art stuff and other things I love. I don't need any gifts anymore because I finally have reached a dream I did not even realize I could reach. Thank you daddy for saving and gifting me the money you would never spend on yourself while you were alive. Thank you for paying for my stay in that cute little cabin near Emmetsburg. It was a wonderful place and I never meant for you to pay for it. It was so generous of you to pay.
I will be forever grateful for Larry. I have not been as appreciative of how much he does for me as I should be. I think the reason it rubs me the wrong way is guilt. I should be doing a lot of those things. He spoils me so much and I really love it. I have been helping him more to show him how much I do care about him. I don't know why I had to be so crazy for the times I was. The bad thing is I think my daughters are in that place now and I don't know how to fix them either. Hormones can really mess people up!
Hunter will be here tomorrow, so I'd better finish this for now and go to bed. Goodnight!
This actually turned out to be more about now than long ago, lol. I have been doing some thinking about when I was little and when my daughters were little and of course watching my grandkids growing up so fast.
