January 5, 2017
No poetry today. Just words as they come to mind. It is bitterly cold on this Winter, January, barren day in Iowa. The winter blahs are trying to move in, but so far I am fighting them, and winning. I have done several things this morning, most of it involving surfing the internet. It can really pull you in. Facebook first, then YouTube, next is a stop at Pinterest. On and on, one thing leading to another until potty break time. Then soon it is lunch time, where did the morning go? Sheesh, it was just 9:00 a.m.
I am doing well about not watching television, but all of the news is there for me to see as I come into my place to access my web search. Choose to look at it and read is mine alone. I started out on Facebook, which led me to YouTube because there was a good video to see. Then when I was on the channel, there were many choices as to what video to watch next. Yes, I realize how trivial this is, but it is how my morning went. Too cold to go to the shed today. Really need to look into finding another, bigger heater that will keep up in the bitter cold. I don't want to not go out there. It just is not in the cards, so to speak. I can draw a little bit in the house, and I did, but it just is not the same as being in the shed. I cannot explain why. It just is. But, I am doing my best. So far I have had 2 oatmeal cookies for breakfast and a cup of bean soup for lunch. Plus, lots of water. I seem to do well until the middle of the afternoon. Then something happens. Like a mad person, I lose control and start eating everything that does not move. Bored, probably. Lonesome, yes. Out of control, not yet today. I am glad to be alive. Friday I go to the Heart Doctor and I am going to tell them all of my wonderings. I wonder if I have Congestive Heart problems. What can I do about it? (lose weight, lots of it) What do I get from going off eating everything that does not move? I DO NOT KNOW! I just know that it happens and I cannot seem to get it stopped. Even though it is the new year and fitness is doable. Why do I give up so often? Because I am miserable!!! Eating rabbit food nearly all my life just to try to be a different person is not fun. The sad part is that I have been trying since I was about 10. Why didn't they Love me more? Why did I not feel it more, if they did. I have been finding myself sighing such big sighs lately. I told my regular attendant that I was doing it, she gave me 3 different drugs to try to help it. I did not take them, but started yesterday. No change yet that I am aware about. I am getting tired of writing already. Bored, yep. After I watched a couple of videos of music, I looked up Art Journaling how to's. From there it pulled up the Carrie Fisher video of her stage act lecture that I had begun to read last night, so I finished watching it. She really was funny. The only thing I would say about it was that it had a kind of odd ending. But then again, how do you end telling the ups and downs of your life. It was done several years ago back when she still had the short haircut that I loved. We really lost a lot of Stars again this year. So, so many. Carrie was only 60. That doesn't seem very old when you are around that age. It used to seem ancient, but not anymore. That is what they mean by "it's all relative" I suppose. We will miss you Carrie. No, your Mom did not mean to upstage you, but still she did it. I hope you laughed your lovely big laugh. Travel on and have fun!
Today is Friday, January 13, 2017
The weather has been bad this past week. Yucky, to describe it better. It has been cold, rainy, snowy, bitterly cold, slick, generally bad. We postponed my echo from Tuesday to Thursday this week. So far no call telling me any result from it. I figure it must not be too bad because they would have called me first thing this morning if that were the case. My heart was out this time, at least it felt like it was at the time. It went back around lunch time, I think. It was that flutter stuff up around my throat. I did not mention it to the Echo gal because I figured she could not do anything about it, nor would she be able to tell me anything. So, I think I will call the Iowa Heart Center about 1:00 p.m. today so I won't have to wait all weekend. I so hope my heart is not in failure, but I worry that it may be. The not being able to catch my breath is what concerns me most. It does seem to be better the last couple of days. Maybe I have been having a bronchial thing and did not know it.
Anyway, Larry just got a call from Memory. Mary must be in the hospital from what I can gather from what they are saying. He will let me know asap as he is still talking to her. Just a minute, he is off now. Mary is in the hospital in Webster City. She cannot breathe very well. It doesn't sound too good to me. I think we will be going to see her soon. I hope this is not the end, please, please, please don't let it be. I love her like a sister I never had. More later, time for lunch.
Saturday the 14th of January, 2017
Yet another cold day. Dreary so far, but I think this round of bad weather may go south of us. They had really bad weather down south, lots killed. 4 in Miss. and 11 elsewhere. Not good. Now my computer keyboard has decided to skip letters when I try to type right along. Sticking? Will loo into it. Seems like I am always fixing something.
Sunday, January 22,2016
Good morning Sunday! This has been another week that flew by. We did not do much because the weather has been bad. Ice storm, snow and lots of rain. I fell on the ice a week ago and it has been taking a long time to get better.
January 31, 2017
Come to find out, the pain in my back that I thought was delayed shock was not. I had forgotten that I did some yoga stretches wayyyyyyyyyyy down deep. Now I believe these are what made my back go, "oh no you din't". I should have made the connection sooner, but did not. Larry got a call from his sister Mem. Mary is out of the hospital and doing very well. Phhheeewww! That was really a scare. Much more so for her I would wager.
Temps are in the 30's today, but due to go down the rest of the week. We could not go yesterday because we got to have Penny all day, as daycare was closed. She is such a dolly and full of Love and Joy. She is probably going to be our last grandchild, so lots of spoiling is on the way the next few years. Soon she, too, will be in school all day. That about breaks my heart, but we chose not to take care of her when we had a chance. We just can't do that anymore. We get way too stressed. That is about it. We did go to Jefferson this morning to pick up my Lorazapam script at the Doctors. I have not been using it for some time now because I had let the prescription run out. It was 5.00. We have to build up our deductible once again. Then we went to lunch at Subway. They are now weighing the meat, sheesh. Don't sell one extra ounce, whatever happens! grrrr. Then we went to the Dollar store, then Fareway, then home. We needed to get bags for Penny's presents. Her Birthday is Monday next week, and she and Lacey and I are going to Tea Thyme for a party! Can't wait! I hope we don't get Pam for our waitress. She was terrible to us the last time we went. I should have complained to Deb, but didn't. I have not seen Pam even in there since. So, maybe someone else complained. If you can't take the pressure, get out! Anyway, that was not the time to have it go wrong, because Jodee and Sydney were there too. We did not let it spoil the day, but it sure didn't help. We asked if we could have Sydney's hot chocolate in the fancy tea cups. You would think we asked her to perform a miracle or something! She said yes, but I have to charge you an add on fee. I KNOW Deb would have been mad if she knew that. As much as we go in there~?!
Anyway, back to telling good things.
Next time America, lol.
